It’s another chapter in my life. The previous one has come to a close. It’s probably a good thing. Looking back, it is weird to see how someone who I treasured so much could have caused me so much pain. That’s how it works I guess. In loving someone, you open up your heart and are susceptible to all kinds of emotions.

Was I wrong in opening up my heart to love her?
I seriously don’t think so. I mean if after 2 years you still can’t be sure about whether your partner is someone you want to spend the rest of your life with then what’s the point in continuing the relationship?

Could I have been better in the relationship?
Of course. There were many things I shouldn’t have done and many more things I should have done but didn’t. I think as with every other aspect of my life, I should have placed him first.

So what happens now?
I think the biggest ongoing struggle for me is stopping myself from worrying about my future partner. Many times I’ve wondered, the relationship with her was so beautiful. Will I ever have another one like it? Is it possible to have a miracle like that happen again? Let’s just say, I’m trying my best to trust Him to make it happen.

Where do I go from here?
I really don’t have a clue. I’m just aiming towards the existing route which God has planned for me. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do after I’ve reached there. But I’m not worried. That’s still 5 years away. Maybe along the way, I’ll meet someone who’s right for me.

::: Lyric of the Day :::
I walked this bridge
and I've called your name
And you always hear me cry
I rested long enough to pray
And I've heard you answer me
I've heard you answer

So tired, so slow, forgive me
But the road you walk
It breaks my heart

I kick, I scream, frustrated
But your faithfulness
It stands by me